So, I did my first two miles today without stopping. @_@. hooray!

After exercising with my mum, we listened to bruno mars: just the way you are on our way home. 

While translating each line so my mum can get the full picture.. she laughed and said this song is soooo “just in the beginning of the relationship”. (when you’re bbyung gah suh.) Anyways, while listening, I started to question if the line “there’s not a thing I would change cause you’re amazing just the way you are” really made sense.

I think to not have someone change would be impossible. We are all changing and in order to truly love someone, we must choose to embrace and commit to the person despite the changes that the person had gone through, is going through, and will be going through. Really, through the thick and thin.. through the ugly and the beautiful.. through the nasty and the awesome. Now, THAT is love. LOL. and.. a side note! (if someone didn’t want me to change.. especially for the better.. it’d be so sad! I mean if a person is demanding change…. or when i’m feeling ugly or low and they’re saying that to comfort me then that’s cool.. but what I’m talking about is when they’re telling me to stay the same for the sake of staying the same. It’s like telling someone to not grow up.. to not mature.. to not be free.. to not learn.. to not advance… that is so not cool and so second grade.) haha. Anyways.

I went to a dinner with couple of friends. A friend messaged me the next day after sharing with her of how i’m picking up disciplines.. to mature.. and she said to never change because I’m one of the most awesome people she’s ever met. She didn’t understand that I saw areas in my life where I needed to mature in.. being more self-aware.. and taking up disciplines so that I’d be more intentional… but though I (tried to) explain myself.. she kept telling me never to change and to stay exactly the same. 

Well, all I kept thinking was, “I’m sorry. Change is inevitable. I will be changing. BUT it’d be for the better.”

The reason why I know it’d be for the better is because Christ is my Lord. He’s the one conforming me to His likeness. Through discipline, hardship, and suffering I’ll be put in the fire to come out refined like gold (like Jesus).

2 Corinthians 1:21-22 Now it is God who makes both us and you stand firm in Christ. He anointed us,  set his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

In the midst of all the changes that will be happening in life.. there will be ups and downs..  failures and celebration.. sorrow and rejoicing.. God’s love will not change. He is the one who knows everything.. and I mean EVERYTHING.. all shame, guilt, hurts, pains (& pains inflicted on others), sorrows, embarrassments, joys, loves and everything else that falls in between. He was there. Even though he knows everything, He still loves me unconditionally. MAN! (jaw dropped, eyes rolling back, chin up with hands in the air).

My pastor said a quote that sticks with me til this day.. and it’s “to be fully loved is to be fully known.” 

It’s really about taking risks. Taking risks to love. Taking risks to surrender. Taking risks to trust. But the risk taking is not that difficult when firmly planted in God and in who He says He is in His word.

Numbers 23:19  God is not man, that he should lie, or a son of man, that he should change his mind.  Has he said, and will he not do it? Or has he spoken, and will he not fulfill it?

Only God fully loves me because He fully knows me.

And now that I come to think of it, I think bruno mars was talking more on looks not on love. LOL